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Visions
Lately I've been having really vivid daydream/vision things. Usually when driving, but not always. Generally they're of myself, dead. Driving home the other night I saw myself somehow wrecking my car on I290 and ending up going off the road and landing in Lake Quinsig, and drowning. Very clearly. It was interesting. At first it made me feel kind of peaceful - a kind of "Well, it's over". But then I'd see the people in my life, like my parents, and it'd hurt to think that they might hurt because of my death. It is like some part of my brain is saying "Wouldn't it be nice if it was just done with?" and some other part is saying "Yeah, but then it'd suck for these other people." Sometimes I think that's the whole point of life - trying to minimize how much you make other people's lives suck.

I am: lonely lonely
Current Media: quiet

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mackys From: mackys Date: November 1st, 2003 11:40 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)

(AOL)Me too!(/AOL)

Sometimes I think that's the whole point of life - trying to minimize how much you make other people's lives suck.

If that isn't the point of life, then it's a damn good place to start.
From: jehanna Date: November 2nd, 2003 12:11 am (UTC) (Direct Link)
I'm not at all sure what's wrong, but I do hope things get better.

*hugs*
From: iwascaite Date: November 2nd, 2003 02:11 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
I hope it gets better too. It normally takes me 18-24 hours of not being in the car to stop seeing things like this after driving long trips. But yeah, full color, sense-surround, absolutely convinced you're going to die... and everything is just fine outside your head.

Um,. I did find something that helped slightly, I change shoes. I try to drive in thin soled shoes and usually wear heeled boots afterwards to change the vibration pattern.

Be careful though, the kind of tension that gives me visions like that measurably increases my blood pressure. You should probably add this to the list of things to discuss during your next doctor's appointment.
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