"But I see you still posting to USENet and/or LJ!" Yes, that's true. I don't know exactly why but doing that kind of thing seems to use some *other* part of my brain. Surfing USENet is almost meditative for me after doing it for 14+ years. While part of my brain is scanning text most of my brain is running a background job sorting things out. I don't have to really think about things very much. But corresponding with someone seems to use some other circuit - I put more thought and care into email to friends, etc, and that focus seems to involve the same circuits that are already overloaded with other Big Thoughts. So while I can dash off an answer to someone asking how to upgrade their TiVo without giving it a second thought I have trouble getting personal when I'm like this. I've wanted to write some things down but I'm having problems with even doing that right now.
I'll be fine, really. I've just been given a huge amount of data and emotion to process in the past two days and my batch hopper is full at the moment. I'll eventually sort things out, churn through it, and come to some kind of conclusion and I'll be 'better' again. This isn't the first time, as I'm sure those who've known me for a while are aware. i may end up taking some time off - my boss suggested it today since I'm obviously not focused on work and my productivity for the past week has been fairly poor. And he's right, it has been, and that bothers me too. If nothing else I'm off to see my folks in Florida 2/7-2/15. I turned off comments on this since it isn't a call for sympathy or anything, just an explanation. I hope to me back to myself soon.