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Missing: My Mojo
If found, please contact zonereyrie

Man, something is seriously wrong with me. Lately work has been a complete slog. I haven't been able to write a single word for Eyrie Productions in *months*. I haven't even been able to focus enough to read most of the books I have in my 'to read' stack. I've stopped reading almost all of the online communities I used to be active in - now I'm basically reading only LJ and a handful of USENet groups. Every last one of my personal projects have stalled. I'm at least a month behind on shit for pmx and I can't get motivated.

I've lost my mojo. Nothing inspires me anymore, nothing motivates me. The most excited I get is when I rant about TiVo to someone - and that's kind of scary/sad, really. I've been totally distracting myself by playing with OK Cupid for the past week.

I hope my trip to Florida next week helps clear my head. This is getting real old.

I am: frustrated frustrated
Current Media: INXS - Building Bridges

fallenpegasus From: fallenpegasus Date: February 5th, 2004 04:37 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
What's scary about OKCupid is that you keep coming up as #1 on my ex's list of matches.
zonereyrie From: zonereyrie Date: February 5th, 2004 04:44 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
Heh - she's on my second page of 'world matches' I think.
zonereyrie From: zonereyrie Date: February 5th, 2004 04:55 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
Oh, correction, she appears to be #4 at the moment. (As I, and others, answer more of their questions things shift around...)
jezel From: jezel Date: February 6th, 2004 11:37 am (UTC) (Direct Link)
Woo-hoo! I'm #4! I'm #4! :)
From: iwascaite Date: February 5th, 2004 05:22 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
Do you remember what you told me? You said it was always possible to recreate oneself. I said it wasn't that easy, you didn't say anything (I took that for agreement--- see I can do subtle-like-a-brick-wrapped-in-aluminum-foil.) I said I felt like the undead, but not the cool kind with vampiric powers, and you asked me if I wanted to talk about it. I felt bad then for saying no, as if it was a rejection of friendship, but now I'm glad I didn't add to your problems.

Seriously, that was the pep talk you thought would help me, and we tend to treat others the way we want to be treated, so I hope it helps. The reciprocal offer stands.

And my statement about the meds you are taking causing depression is a totally valid concern that you really should check out. In the mean time, take as good of care of yourself as you can stand to do.

I wish you luck that your change of scenery brings a new sense of joy to the rest of your life. Maybe there will be enough of a sense of home and family that you will feel reconnected. Given what you describe though, maybe you should organize time with friends before and after you go, hedge your bets a little.
wedgex From: wedgex Date: February 5th, 2004 06:08 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
While in beautiful South Florida, might I suggest you try Park Ave. BBQ, home to some of the finest ribs. I go to the one in Wellington every time I'm home (twice on the most recent trip :) Good stuff.
autumnesquirrel From: autumnesquirrel Date: February 5th, 2004 08:09 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
broken_gizmo From: broken_gizmo Date: February 6th, 2004 07:57 am (UTC) (Direct Link)
I think that, perhaps, your mojo is on vacation with my mojo, sitting on a beach somewhere. Maybe you will find them when you go to Florida. If so, can you nudge mine back to me?