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The Ramblings of a Damaged Mind
Anime Expo 2004 starts today - this is the first time since 1994 that I'm not there. I went to every AX since the first one in 1992, except I missed 1994 because I was in Europe finishing my history degree that summer. And I always kind of regretted missing that one year, because I couldn't claim to have been to every AX and that bugged me on some deep level...

But this year I'm the one who decided not to go. Part of me still really wants to be there, but I think that's mostly inertia and routine. Since 1992 it was basically 'the trip I take every summer'. Every July 4th weekend I'd be on my way to AX (well, one year it wasn't July 4th). But the past couple of years I felt kind of out of place. My anime fandom has been less rabid the past few years, and I relate less and less to the 'new wave' of anime fans. I don't have the time to watch anime constantly that I used to have, so I'm forever out of the loop on what's 'new and cool'. I can't be bothered to bit torrent the shows that aired last night in Japan like so many of these kids seem to do. If you're not 'now', you're not really a fan. So AX had become less about the anime for me and more about seeing old friends. But then fewer of those friends have been attending AX in recent years, and after the big meltdown with Mike and Jen and PMX and AX... I just had enough I guess. I couldn't justify spending hundreds of dollars on a trip to AX when I'd probably spend most of the time just hanging out and talking to a handful of people. I don't care for sitting in con video rooms watching anime with a room full of otaku, online shops have made the dealer's room obsolete and over priced, and I've never cared for Masquerade, the concerts, or dances. So maybe the AMV contest, and the industry panels - but these days there'll be people posting *at* the panels with wireless net access. You can get the latest news without being there. (In years past I've done similar things with my rig.)

Still, I feel kind of displaced and sad - like I'm not where I should be or something. I just feel strange and not quite right.

I am: displaced
Current Media: Information Society: Going, Going, Gone

From: kensuke_aida Date: July 2nd, 2004 05:43 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
I feel the same way. Went every year since '98 in one capacity or another. This is the first year I'm actually seriously thinking of not going. I might grab my friend Mike and do a one day thing tomorrow, but it's somewhat doubful because there's nobody there I really wanna meet or much I really want to see.

I *am* glad I did PMX though. I'm hoping maybe I can start a trend like you did with AX. I got on staff on the first year . I'm still kinda bummed you weren't there though. Everybody was nice, but "the brow" was absent. :P

- John

zonereyrie From: zonereyrie Date: July 2nd, 2004 05:59 pm (UTC) (Direct Link)
I regret not being at PMX. And I did think of going just to be there for the weekend, but I would've felt like a dick after resigning from staff if I just showed up.

I really just couldn't manage it - mainly due to the schedule at work at the time, as well as the money. I realized a couple of montbs back that I'd gotten a bit spend happy - new laptop, big DVD order, a couple of large Amazon orders, plus costs for wedding gifts, etc, that came up. And now I'm carrying a large balance on my credit cards again. So I'm trying to get them paid down before taking trips and the like.