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Auction frenzy - MegaZone's Safety Valve
The Ramblings of a Damaged Mind
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Auction frenzy
Well, I was watching the end of this auction, thinking about bidding at the end - but damn, the last minute bidding shot WAY up - to $375!. I almost bid more anyway, but the small part of my brain that is responsible reminded me that I still owe a lot of money to my credit cards... I did have to fight that auction fever feeling. My landlord just decided to refund my security deposit since I've been a good tenant, so I just deposited $550 I wasn't expecting to have. And I thought "Hey, I didn't plan on having that money anyway..." Bad, bad thoughts...

I also realized that at one time I *would've* bid. And I feel weird about that. Yeah, at the time I was making a lot more than I am now, and I was out of debt, etc. So I had more money available - but I have to wonder, what could I have done with the money I spent so freely? I could've invested it, saved more, etc. Maybe being laid off wouldn't have been as rough if I'd been saving up more money. I mean, I was spending hundreds of dollars a month on DVDs - and I still have the urge to buy all the DVDs I've missed over the past couple of years. But I was also spending a lot of money on auctions for things like Jem audio cassettes and other silly things. I wonder how I should weigh that? How much is the pleasure of having something you really want worth? What *is* responsible or irresponsible? Hmm.

I am: astonished
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